I want it to be over.

[zim35]

New here and incredibly angry!

[Meilingkie]

It´s burning hot, painful and everything you can describe and more.
And it will get better, but that can take years.

Take care, look around and read.
Take it slow, and you will get through this.
For me it´s the hardest thing I have ever done.

[Fifi de la Vergne]

Welcome to NOM, zim35. We would love to hear your story -- you'll probably find a lot of people who can empathize.

[NotKeepingQuiet]

For the most part, the anger dissipates after awhile. It's so incredibly helpful to cross this ocean with good NOM shipmates.

[Silver Girl]

Welcome to the family, zim35 - I hope you're tell us a bit about your story, as time permits and as you're comfortable.

We get the anger - and I am so sorry for the pain and trauma you're going through. As Meilingkie said, it takes a while, and each person has a unique situation (family, work situation, married, single) to navigate.

This is a wonderful and supportive group - please feel at home here!

[MalcolmVillager]

Sending love to our new villager. Welcome officially to the ward. It does get better but there are days that it will not feel that way.

Go slow. Treat yourself and loved ones with kindness and be gentle. It isn't the end of the world.

[Corsair]

New here and incredibly angry!

Yes, the angry phase seems to linger like the smell of sweaty gym socks in the back seat of you car. It's like you were shuffled into crazy land and everyone around you is claiming that clearly you are in the wrong while you see the silliness inherent in the system. Let us know what things you have seen and how your friends and family have reacted.

[chesteridaho]

Welcome to the village.

[zim35]

I had a serious medical condition that I survived and I'm so tired of everyone telling me that "I'm here for a reason" or that "it wasn't my time to go". I've started telling people that say it was a miracle that the real miracle would have been if God hadn't been playing the back nine so he could have stopped it from happening in the first place! I'm tired of everyone hijacking my story to validate and feel better about their insane views!!!

On the upside, I was amazed at how many of you welcomed me here! Thank you.

[AzCommando]

We do hope you feel welcome. This Ward has many intelligent and loving members. I too have felt many, perhaps some of the same emotions. Please introduce yourself in more detail if you want. I am not one to talk about intros because I need to do it again, I joined NOM 1.0 last January. I was lost when the board disappeared a few months ago.

Commando was angry....still am... some may describe it as hostile. I gave everything to the tscc, time, family, money, loyalty to a fault and identity. For what? It certainly wasn't for the Building of any Kingdom that resembles a church of Jesus Christ.

I belong to the Phoenix Nom Ward. Always hear to listen.

[Lithium Sunset]

I'm glad you pulled through but sorry you are in mental pain. I can commiserate although I have not been in a life threatening situation.

You'll find that the people on this forum are genuine and are here for you so please know you're not alone.

This Ward has many intelligent and loving members.

I would say that I fall into the loving category haha.
I have dished out stupid saying as TBM and have been on the other painful end.

This past weekend I found out I wasn't selected to interview for a dream job(that would propel my independence). I couldn't help but push back on anyone who said it wasn't meant to be, that God had other plans, or that it was fate. I said firmly that it wasn't any of those things. My hard work will mix with chance to decide my "fate". I will keep moving forward (such a great mantra don't you think?).

Again, glad you are here and decided to speak up. Time is a huge part of the process but we are here to help until you get there.

[slk]

I think we all want it to be over...Glad you are doing better healthwise. You have lots of friends here.

[Red Ryder]

Sorry Zim35, it was me who was golfing with God when you went through your stuff. He's a great competitor but all he kept complaining about was how tired he was from punishing all of his children who weren't following his favorite son. He was pretty worn out with all the famines, earthquakes, and tragedies he had inflicted on us humans.

He also complained he was tired of meeting with the Mormon leadership because they weren't listening. He complained that they were bastardizing his name and reputation.

On the 17th hole, God shanked it so far to the left that I thought we was going to get angry and cause the earth to shake. Instead he decides to take par and rest for the hole. I tried to calm him down and offered to wash his balls but he said that was Satan's job.

I beat him by two strokes and thought he was going to buy me lunch afterwards since that was our covenant promise if I won. He didn't.

God's a sore loser!

[Vlad the Emailer]

I've started telling people that say it was a miracle that the real miracle would have been if God hadn't been playing the back nine so he could have stopped it from happening in the first place!

Huge point.

My daughter recently came out well after a major accident and, of course, there all these faith promoting stories and testimonies about all the ways in which God took care of her after it happened. My response is the same as yours, "where was he before it happened?".

[zim35]

Thanks everyone for your comments. Hearing all the ridiculous beliefs of TBMS all day long makes me take a funny, humorous take on it. That's the only way I can connect it in my head and not be horrified by the way they see the world. I laughed so hard at RedRyders comment on golfing with God! Humor really is the best medicine.

I'm a dad. I'm from Salt (f******) Lake. Divorced (Hurray!) I was raised in a mormon family (Nazi mormons) I'm really close to resigning from the church. (Need to talk to my kids first). The rest of my family can choke on my resignation if they choose. I actually think I have some family that feel the same way I do. (Mind blowing)

[Hagoth]

I'm glad you found NOM, zim35. I hope it will be a useful place for you to process the weirdness.