Baby Steps: I get to have more agency?!

Discussions about negotiating relationships between faithful LDS believers and the apostates who love them. This applies in particular to mixed-faith marriages, but relations with children, parents, siblings, friends, and ward members is very welcome.
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Baby Steps: I get to have more agency?!

Post by stuck » Fri Aug 05, 2022 1:16 pm

My wife has been seeing a counselor for some anxiety. Recently she saw her and told her that one of her main sources of her anxiety was my faith crisis/transition. The counselor told her that she shouldn't be like Satan and not give me agency. In my mind I was like yes! She says that she feels like she has the sole responsibility of saving her kids because I am not helping much or I don't believe anymore. Gee it would be nice if Mormons were like born again Christians right? That would mean that they would only have to believe in Jesus and try to follow him and then they would be saved. Anyway, it doesn't help that her parents have said things to make her feel like she is solely responsible for the kid's salvation now.

Going forward I think the challenge will be to have her allow me to have some influence on the kid's beliefs. I think she would prefer to only teach the kids the faith promoting church approved stuff. She doesn't want them to learn about the other side of things in case they lose their faith and belief. I think if she insists on this that it will be doing our kids a disservice because they will probably end up going on missions without knowing the "skeletons in the church's closet. And so they will not have the appropriate informed consent. Perhaps I will just have to let her know that if they ask why I don't believe in the church as much or what my thoughts are on the church or BoM that I will feel obligated to tell the truth about those things.

Hopefully she will loosen up a bit and come to a "knowledge of the truth" before too long so that we can be on more or less the same page. I think her fear is that our family may fall apart if we leave the church. She has some cousins where that has happened, but she has others that it hasn't happened. She does have some concerns about polygamy and maybe that could be a starting point. Do you guys have any suggestions for books that might get her thinking etc.?

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Re: Baby Steps: I get to have more agency?!

Post by Red Ryder » Fri Aug 05, 2022 2:32 pm

Here’s a great podcast she can relate to. Take a listen first and determine if you think she will like it then find a way for her to listen. Show her you have empathy for her “extra responsibilities” and perhaps she can understand why Mormon women feel the way they do in your situation.

At Last She Said It
Episode 5: Men Don’t have a Giant Church Bag.

https://atlastshesaidit.libsyn.com/epi ... urch-bag-0
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Re: Baby Steps: I get to have more agency?!

Post by Linked » Mon Aug 08, 2022 5:08 pm

stuck wrote:
Fri Aug 05, 2022 1:16 pm
Going forward I think the challenge will be to have her allow me to have some influence on the kid's beliefs. I think she would prefer to only teach the kids the faith promoting church approved stuff. She doesn't want them to learn about the other side of things in case they lose their faith and belief. I think if she insists on this that it will be doing our kids a disservice because they will probably end up going on missions without knowing the "skeletons in the church's closet. And so they will not have the appropriate informed consent. Perhaps I will just have to let her know that if they ask why I don't believe in the church as much or what my thoughts are on the church or BoM that I will feel obligated to tell the truth about those things.
The way I have handled this with my DW is to not focus on the "skeletons in the closet" issues but to provide balance with experiences and lessons to broaden their view of life in general. Things like science youtubes and documentaries, critical thinking, and studying or visiting different cultures. Sometimes a skeleton issue will come up that I can't let go without correcting, and in those cases I try to be brief and just make sure the facts are known.

With the recent "being a missionary is not a choice young men" messaging I chatted with my wife about it and then we told the kids that they 100% have a choice on if they go on a mission and we will support them either way. I included some examples of how some people may put pressure on them with comments like "when you go on a mission..." so that they can understand when it's happening.
"I would write about life. Every person would be exactly as important as any other. All facts would also be given equal weightiness. Nothing would be left out. Let others bring order to chaos. I would bring chaos to order" - Kurt Vonnegut

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Re: Baby Steps: I get to have more agency?!

Post by RubinHighlander » Mon Aug 08, 2022 5:55 pm

I would avoid any conversations on it or it usually just turns defensive where each hunkers into their corner. I would instead, double down on being a great spouse. Don't give them any reason to make you out as a poster child for their Beelzebub. Your being a better husband and father should not be tied to anything relating to that religion, try to tie it to things like great outdoor activities, preferably some that spill over a whole weekend where you start to miss maybe one or two weekends a month (as many as possible without drawing suspicion. Getting your DW out of house out into nature is gaining some neutral ground. Getting your DW and kids out of church for an overnight in the great outdoors is usually going to be a win for you, if it's planned well so the creatures have some comfort and it wasn't miserable experience (again, DW might see Satan trying to punish you for not being in church).

Just before my DW's shelf broke, we were taking more weekend trips to go adventure together, maybe just a drive out on some dirt roads for some rockhounding or kayaking or camping in the mountains. It was DW who said how much better she felt Monday morning after a weekend not at church. She started to see the BS and the stress it was to have to go into that F-ing building every week. Me being a better husband, outside the church, being happier, helping her feel more happiness (outside the church), gave her the mental and emotional cushion she needed to know things would be just fine if she entertained the thought it might be BS...and she did! So I think the more you can distance you, your DW and your whole family with positive experiences far away from the institution, then you can eventual win with nature on your side. You might find she will find her own way out once she can get out of there and just think for herself. But the minute spouse starts to doubt, the other panics and is constantly trying to figure out how to fix it. It's a terrible level of stress! Sometimes you just have to back off and let things be normal, then maybe make some moves toward reducing the exposure while you increase the love.
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