MerrieMiss wrote: ↑
Mon Jan 14, 2019 11:38 am
slavereeno wrote: ↑
Mon Jan 14, 2019 10:52 am
græy wrote: ↑
Mon Jan 14, 2019 9:58 am
Is this what God wants for his children? We are Gods in embryo right? We're meant to become universal architects ourselves right? How do we do that if we're not allowed to use our own brains? Or are our future God-selves expected to continue to follow the program and pattern that has been laid out since before we emerged from the great unlimited glob of "intelligence(s)" without any thought or initiative of our own involved?
This. I tried arguing that they way we are treated, talked down to, the strict dogma, the "worthiness" interviews, the "trust us and stay on the boat", the virtue signaling, the strict commandments, the deferral of our spirituality and our very ethos to "The Brethren", all this is counter to the supposed plan to one day be a God ourselves. The Doctrine is acutely self-defeating.
I point this out with my husband: "I was raised in a church that taught me that agency was the most important thing I had and the most important tool for growth so I could become like him (god)." Fortunately, my husband remembers the huge emphasis on agency and agrees that the church stifles it. However I've noticed the church has moved away from free agency, to just agency, and not it's not agency at all, just blind obedience. It makes it easier to produce shallow, thought stopping beliefs and mask it as thinking and study.
I remember when I was much younger--high school and college and even mission-- I was so interested in the deep doctrine- really delving into the Apocrypha and Dead Sea scrolls and whatnot. I felt it was my responsibility to know everything- because the only thing we get to take to the spirit world is our knowledge and I wanted to be ahead of the game.
But over time on my mission and at institute and singles ward, that desire to research was suppressed by the patriarchal church- I needed to be submissive and find a husband and pop out kids.
And you know what? I accepted it- and even enjoyed it a little- the thinking was over- I just needed to follow the rules. I was an intelligent, educated simpleton. I wasn't even interested in agency anymore because that flies in the face of obedience. I consciously accepted becoming a zombie.
I am truly EMBARRASSED by my words and behavior early on in my career- when I used such simplistic language and reprimanded others for their language and behavior. I must have been viewed as a complete imbecile by my peers for the way I acted.
When I finally realized the church was bogus, it was as though I had left the world of black and white and saw the full spectrum of colors. As though I could finally taste food and see a rainbow for the first time.
Once you have eaten at a fine restaurant, the bland monotony of McDonald's or Olive Garden can be nauseating. You know you can always go to any of their restaurants and order from the same menu, but why when you have now seen and tasted better.