Azrael wrote: ↑Mon Dec 24, 2018 8:40 am
I’m sorry you’ve come to this conclusion. My experience has been amazing concerning the Holy Spirit and prayer.
Good for you, Azrael. I certainly hope you understand that the experiences of others who are intensely sincere, and who have dedicated a lifetime of devotion to the church and to living its standards but who had a different outcome are just as valid. Most of the people I know who have lost their testimonies have put far more time and effort into getting real answers than the average believing member, and have at some point wanted those answers more than anything else in their lives. If you hang around long here long enough you will come to appreciate how sincere and knowledgeable these folks are.
I believe that we each have have to find our own path, and that we each have individual brain wiring and chemistry that makes it impossible for there to be a one-size-fits-all solution. Just as some people have different happiness baselines, different interests, motivations, etc, there are those whose brains respond well to different experiences and religious stimuli. Mormonism just seems to work for some people and make them happy. For others it is emotionally harmful. Those who can simply pray and get the "right" answer have no concept of the hours, weeks, months, years of dark-night-o'-the-soul that others have struggled with, only to be told they're just not doing it right or that they're not good enough, or they need to keep the shoulder to the wheel and not give up until they either get the right answer of die trying.
I have to retract my earlier statement about being able to get "good" answers about things that I already believed in. I nearly wore my knees out on my mission praying for a testimony of the Book of Mormon. I believed in the Book of Mormon but I felt like a hypocrite going out every day and promising people that if THEY read it God would tell them in no uncertain terms that it was true. Why wouldn't He do that for me? I was devoting my whole life to the church, and had been since I was a toddler and to being faithful and scrupulously obedient. I guess maybe deep down inside I might have had some doubts, so I couldn't get that answer? I dunno, you tell me.
“The easy confidence with which I know another man's religion is folly teaches me to suspect that my own is also.” -Mark Twain
Jesus: "The Kingdom of God is within you." The Buddha: "Be your own light."