I am Enough
Posted: Sun Nov 13, 2016 12:00 am
A few years ago I was in a particularly bad place.
I had the full effect of the faith crisis underway, living in a foreign country with very limited support - no real friends close by, my marriage was very rocky, work sucked, and it felt like I had no place to turn. I felt like my life was not worth living and I couldn't escape from all the mess.
It really felt like my life was totally in the crapper.
Back in Australia we had some friends that left the church a few years before, my DW is still friends via facebook, and I get to see posts made by them from time to time.
There was one particular post that they made that struck me, it was simply.
'I am Enough'
I really don't know why, but it really struck a chord with me, somehow I realised that will all my faults, problems, and doubts about the church, that I was enough. It made me realise that I don't need all the answers now, I don't need to fix everything now, that I am a flawed, emotional being, and that's ok, 'cause we all are.
I still wasn't sure if god existed, but if he did, and we were made in his image then I was exactly how he made me. That life is a journey, not a destination, and I still have a lifetime to figure it all out.
It seems to me like the light at the end of the tunnel was suddenly turn on, and I could see a way out.
Oxi.
I had the full effect of the faith crisis underway, living in a foreign country with very limited support - no real friends close by, my marriage was very rocky, work sucked, and it felt like I had no place to turn. I felt like my life was not worth living and I couldn't escape from all the mess.
It really felt like my life was totally in the crapper.
Back in Australia we had some friends that left the church a few years before, my DW is still friends via facebook, and I get to see posts made by them from time to time.
There was one particular post that they made that struck me, it was simply.
'I am Enough'
I really don't know why, but it really struck a chord with me, somehow I realised that will all my faults, problems, and doubts about the church, that I was enough. It made me realise that I don't need all the answers now, I don't need to fix everything now, that I am a flawed, emotional being, and that's ok, 'cause we all are.
I still wasn't sure if god existed, but if he did, and we were made in his image then I was exactly how he made me. That life is a journey, not a destination, and I still have a lifetime to figure it all out.
It seems to me like the light at the end of the tunnel was suddenly turn on, and I could see a way out.
Oxi.
