https://unherd.com/2023/11/why-i-am-now-a-christian/
Ayaan Hirsi Ali left Islam years ago to become an outspoken atheist, but has now embraced Christianity. I don't know much about Ali outside of a Sam Harris interview I listened to a while back, but this is something I think about occasionally. Does civilization need religion? I suspect it ultimately might, whatever my feelings about the truth claims. But for Ali, it isn't only about saving society.
This is another thing I still think about sometimes. Does life eventually become "unendurable" for the individual without something that you might call "spirituality?" There seem to be examples of people with no belief in anything supernatural living meaningful lives that would suggest that such belief is not a basic need. Or are they subconsciously replacing religion with something else that's no more "valid" in the end? Or just not thinking about the big questions too much to stave off existential dread?Yet I would not be truthful if I attributed my embrace of Christianity solely to the realisation that atheism is too weak and divisive a doctrine to fortify us against our menacing foes. I have also turned to Christianity because I ultimately found life without any spiritual solace unendurable — indeed very nearly self-destructive. Atheism failed to answer a simple question: what is the meaning and purpose of life?
I think I mentioned this at NOM before, but I once had a coworker who had been in school to become a preacher but lost his faith during his studies. Discovering my coworker's story was ideal for me because I was at the height of my questioning phase and we met up outside of work periodically to talk about our respective journeys. One of the things I asked him was, after discovering that deconstruction can go much deeper than Christianity if you let it, how he avoided slipping into nihilism or despair. This was something I saw as a possible end result. He told me that he had to stop himself at some point to function, and I appreciated his candor in saying that.